CONFESSIONS

Tired is an understatement, you give your all to everything that is you and still somehow fall short. How is this even possible? Is good not good enough? I have to be this excellent person. I have to be the type of person who doesn’t care and continues to bend over backwards for others. I […]

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Dear Diary

I keep getting myself into the same situations. I try to separate myself from the misuse of others but I am too caring and also too naive. I know I’m being used, so why do I continue? I know they couldn’t careless about me so why do I entertain them? Why is it so hard […]

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Dear Diary

Today’s thoughts : Should I have waited? (August, 27, 2020) So let me backtrack and give you guys a little back story to this question. Before February of this year I was still a virgin. Yes… I was almost 30 years old and still a virgin. I got to the point where I just said, […]

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Grinding Gears

You know what truly grinds my gears, when people assume they know who you are. They act like they understand you. They pretend to get where you’re coming from. They assume you meant something else from what you actually said. My whole thing is the human race has forgot about one key component: Listening. Instead […]

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RECHARGE!

Here we are again: another Sunday. It’s the last week of April and I hope things have changed for the better in your life all this month. As you can see around the world, it’s been hard to watch all the negative things happening. The pandemic continues to do a number on a lot of […]

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Stay Sharp

Grand Rising Folks! It’s a new week of opportunity, so let’s seize them! As we look around the world shit is crazy right now. A lot of people are losing hope, causing problems, trying their best, and making the right steps towards their future. Ford has on us restrictions again: only thing is it’s worst […]

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dear diary

I’ve done it again, developed feelings for another unavailable guy. Shameful. I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I am needy or am I just going about this the wrong way? You have hope in certain things happening in your life but yet WHO TOLD YOU IT WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO? Just because you start […]

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The GOT DANG truth!

I am a BOSS! Now I ain’t talking about some regular degular shxt, I’m talking about big baller BOSS! I don’t know why I let my mind take over the fact that I am a leader; WE are leaders. This life we have is OURS, so why do we keep downplaying and bashing ourselves when […]

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Dear Diary

Change is in the air and it smells like bull crap. Now don’t get a girl wrong, change can be a beautiful thing: it shows growth and understanding, but is it bad for me to say it’s too late? Like you had a chance to truly change the outcome of your actions but didn’t care, […]

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Dear Diary

11:58pm. I’m tired, zoning in and out, moody, and cold… I just want to get home. Cruising like I couldn’t careless; I usually speed… but today I’m doing the exact same number that speed limit sign says: 60. Car on cruise so I don’t have to keep my foot on the pedal… I’m still zoning […]

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Careless: Hurdle Completed.

It’s crazy because it took me so long to get to a place where I’m just mainly focused on me and my family. I just lost all the cares for anything or anyone else to be truly honest. I’ve always been the one to allow the nonsense because my heart is so big but I […]

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Dear Diary

It’s like every week I’m learning a new lesson. This weeks lesson: keep it to yourself. I mean everything!!! Your feelings, thoughts, emotions, goals, dreams, love, trust, respect, money, compassion, consideration, joy, energy, opinions, EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter who you are or what you stand for to people if they don’t care then there’s no […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve been lying to everyone around me about how I’m truly feeling. There’s no clear way of saying “leave me thee fuck alone” without causing problems. Always talking about being mentally drained and now you physically drained. Only reason you actually get out of bed is because there is money to be made; forget socializing. […]

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Now & Forever

There comes a point in time where enough is enough. You’ve lost the care you once had, the love you once showed, and the desire you once gave. Now you’re cold; immune to the negativity that you just accept it now. Accept that things won’t work out for you, accept that your are who you […]

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Dear Diary

Forgive me. forgive me for wanting more Forgive me for forgetting Forgive me for trying to love someone Forgive me for leaving the church Forgive me for believing you were my friend Forgive me for being so blind Forgive me for the useless money spending Forgive me for yelling Forgive me for swearing Forgive for […]

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