Past tense*

It’s hard to let go of something you wanted so bad,Just another lesson learned, but it still makes me sad.Heart cold like winter nights,Love lost like summer days,Reminiscing on us as a bitxh in a daze.What could have been will never be now,Smiles slowly rest into frowns,If only things were different,If only we were different,But […]

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She says she loves me

She says she loves me, She says she loves me, so she clings to me even when I want to be left aloneBut she’s beautiful Like sometimes when I have things on my mind she’s the perfect person to listenAnd she only gives advice, she says when I give her a cue.She says she loves […]

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Dear Diary

I keep getting myself into the same situations. I try to separate myself from the misuse of others but I am too caring and also too naive. I know I’m being used, so why do I continue? I know they couldn’t careless about me so why do I entertain them? Why is it so hard […]

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Poetry Week!

I was supposed to make this post on Sunday but got too busy over the weekend. This week is all about poems and spoken words that have truly stood out to me. I’ll be dropping some Ive written, some people I know have written, and also the ones I’ve come across in life that truly […]

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Grinding Gears

You know what truly grinds my gears, when people assume they know who you are. They act like they understand you. They pretend to get where you’re coming from. They assume you meant something else from what you actually said. My whole thing is the human race has forgot about one key component: Listening. Instead […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve figured it out…. it’s me . I am the reason I can’t find someone, I am the reason I keep losing friends, I am the reason my mental health is declining, I am the reason my physical health is declining. It’s my fault. My fault for thinking I can find someone as loving as […]

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Dear Diary

It’s been fun. We had a few wild times together but it’s time to move on. I’m over it. I’m over you. That’s what I’d like to say to the stuff that’s been happening to me lately. “GO AWAY” who has time for you? That negative shit… that doing too much for men… that “life […]

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Dear Diary

Mixed emotions. I still believe in love but I’ve given up on the pursuit. The wasted time and shameful disregard for anyone else’s feelings is something I can’t continue with. Yes I talk big and I can easily skip all the lovey-dicey shit and simple get some sexual attention or make men pay for my […]

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Careless: Hurdle Completed.

It’s crazy because it took me so long to get to a place where I’m just mainly focused on me and my family. I just lost all the cares for anything or anyone else to be truly honest. I’ve always been the one to allow the nonsense because my heart is so big but I […]

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The Bad Guy…

so what are you going to say at my funeral now that you’ve killed me? … Here lies the body of a loud, rambunctious yet kind-hearted woman who wouldn’t treat me the way I treated her…Here lies the woman who always gave people the benefit of the doubt even when her gut told her they […]

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Dear Diary

It’s the ones you’ve known the longest that can create the deepest wounds. I guess I’m the bad guy even though I was the one who was wronged… is it wrong to confided in someone you think is there for you? Maybe it’s just wrong to assume that people actually rock with you. You’d be […]

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Now & Forever

There comes a point in time where enough is enough. You’ve lost the care you once had, the love you once showed, and the desire you once gave. Now you’re cold; immune to the negativity that you just accept it now. Accept that things won’t work out for you, accept that your are who you […]

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last nights drunken thoughts

I’d like to start this post off by saying that I have found a new artist who sings for me: Mariah the scientist. So I’m intoxicated and in my feelings. Don’t you just want to kill the memories you had of dumb partners? Wash away the dirt these people left on your body and burn […]

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dear diary

So I’ve been experiencing some fuckery lately with people feeling some time of way about me. My thoughts on that is: sounds like a personal problem. IDGAF. Now, I’m not trying to be mean, even though it sounds that way but my whole thing is how can you know there is a problem when no […]

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Sleep with one eye open!

Things happen in life that are out of your control but at the same time it’s still a shame. I wish these females all the best in life because regardless of what was done, they are just humans who mess up sometimes. I just know that in order to move my life in the direction […]

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