Death to a feeling

For 15 years I set out on a mission to find a love that would be mine. I searched high and LOW for someone I could call my own. Zero luck. I’m writing this as someone who’s never had a boyfriend. To be honest, I’m not exactly sure why this is; I understand I was […]

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RAIN GO AWAY!

Grand rising folks, as usual I’m going to start this by saying how thankful I am for the lives of all of us who made it to see another Sunday. Sleep in peace to those who didn’t make it this far, you will not be forgotten. It’s been a very hectic past week for me, […]

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ULTERIOR MOTIVE [SHORT STORY]

Enjoy the show folks. Let’s go back again to the year 2019: a wild, frustrating, but somewhat lovely year it was for her. During a night of partying they came up with new names for whenever they were out on the town: Rachel and Samantha. A dynamic duo that was causing a storm in the […]

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Dear Diary

i am through with arguing with people, there’s no point. Constantly having to stand up for your respect is not only tiring but also annoying. i trust no one now. time after time you realize that if they don’t have your best interest now, they won’t in the future. Some will even fake rock with […]

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Mental Freedom

Free. Free from mental bondage brought on by how I felt about certain people. I can now say that I am over feeling down about the way people have treated me. I wish nothing but the best for the males who took me for granted and the females who couldn’t be who they say they […]

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Thankful for another!

Grand rising folks, we’ve made it another week. I am truly thankful that my eyes were open this morning and I want to also thank the heavens for opening the eyes of everyone else who made it also. With that being said, sleep in peace to those who didn’t make it to see today. You […]

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Dear Diary

I wanna be loved but not the way people are loving each other now. I want the real deal. The butterflies in the stomach deal: waking up to “good morning” texts deal. I want to feel wanted by my significant other and I want to build with this person also. Scrap all the bullshit we […]

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Bullshit Reality [no sugar coat]

I’m sorry guys, but I was faking it. Hear me out though! Telling a guy he’s not as good as he thinks he is can really bruise the ego. I may talk stern and seem like I don’t care but the fact of the matter is: I can’t bring myself to be honest with males […]

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Past tense*

It’s hard to let go of something you wanted so bad,Just another lesson learned, but it still makes me sad.Heart cold like winter nights,Love lost like summer days,Reminiscing on us as a bitxh in a daze.What could have been will never be now,Smiles slowly rest into frowns,If only things were different,If only we were different,But […]

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She says she loves me

She says she loves me, She says she loves me, so she clings to me even when I want to be left aloneBut she’s beautiful Like sometimes when I have things on my mind she’s the perfect person to listenAnd she only gives advice, she says when I give her a cue.She says she loves […]

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Dear Diary

I keep getting myself into the same situations. I try to separate myself from the misuse of others but I am too caring and also too naive. I know I’m being used, so why do I continue? I know they couldn’t careless about me so why do I entertain them? Why is it so hard […]

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Poetry Week!

I was supposed to make this post on Sunday but got too busy over the weekend. This week is all about poems and spoken words that have truly stood out to me. I’ll be dropping some Ive written, some people I know have written, and also the ones I’ve come across in life that truly […]

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VICTIM

used, abused, and misused I’m a victim of the blues, my life seems to be in ruins, and I’m left with no clues. Kiss goodbye the old me, welcome the new, it’s hard in these streets, in case you never knew. So tired of the games, fake love and the lames, you fight for what’s […]

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The Full Truth

Rip the band-aid off, I was a catfish and I’ve been cat-fished. The Catfish. I’ve used someone else’s picture to holla at men. ONE THOUSAND PERCENT. It profited me very well because it gave me a sugar daddy that for a while was paying for any and everything I needed. For example: my champagne birthday […]

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Dear Diary

Today’s thoughts : Should I have waited? (August, 27, 2020) So let me backtrack and give you guys a little back story to this question. Before February of this year I was still a virgin. Yes… I was almost 30 years old and still a virgin. I got to the point where I just said, […]

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