Dear Diary

I’ve figured it out…. it’s me . I am the reason I can’t find someone, I am the reason I keep losing friends, I am the reason my mental health is declining, I am the reason my physical health is declining. It’s my fault. My fault for thinking I can find someone as loving as […]

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Dear Diary

Change is in the air and it smells like bull crap. Now don’t get a girl wrong, change can be a beautiful thing: it shows growth and understanding, but is it bad for me to say it’s too late? Like you had a chance to truly change the outcome of your actions but didn’t care, […]

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Dear Diary

11:58pm. I’m tired, zoning in and out, moody, and cold… I just want to get home. Cruising like I couldn’t careless; I usually speed… but today I’m doing the exact same number that speed limit sign says: 60. Car on cruise so I don’t have to keep my foot on the pedal… I’m still zoning […]

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Dear Diary

It’s like every week I’m learning a new lesson. This weeks lesson: keep it to yourself. I mean everything!!! Your feelings, thoughts, emotions, goals, dreams, love, trust, respect, money, compassion, consideration, joy, energy, opinions, EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter who you are or what you stand for to people if they don’t care then there’s no […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve been lying to everyone around me about how I’m truly feeling. There’s no clear way of saying “leave me thee fuck alone” without causing problems. Always talking about being mentally drained and now you physically drained. Only reason you actually get out of bed is because there is money to be made; forget socializing. […]

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Dear Diary

Forgive me. forgive me for wanting more Forgive me for forgetting Forgive me for trying to love someone Forgive me for leaving the church Forgive me for believing you were my friend Forgive me for being so blind Forgive me for the useless money spending Forgive me for yelling Forgive me for swearing Forgive for […]

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Nankurunaisa

It all will work out. Powerful. Just when you seem to think all hope is lost, a blessing comes. Just when you’re about to give up, there’s a change in the air. Ready to throw in the towel but still have energy for one more fight. Powerful. To be hopeful in such a bleak world […]

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First of the Month

Grand rising ladies and gentlemen, it’s a new month! No one ever said the road would be an easy road, you just have to always take the high road. The negative outlook on life will only hold you back from your full star potential, something we ALL possess. If I’ve learned anything from my experiences […]

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Dear Diary

Hey…. it’s been a while since I’ve typed my thoughts out but there’s no time like the present. It’s a struggle to remain the kindhearted person I am when I just want to be heartless like everyone else. Like… I wanna not give a crap about what people think or who I hurt too! Nah… […]

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To my experiences

This post is shout out to all my experiences; I call the people I interacted on an intimately level “experiences” because I don’t have exs. Besides the guy I touched on before in the story about “puppy love,” no one can claim me as an ex. You were not around long enough or just weren’t […]

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