Dear Diary

I’ve figured it out…. it’s me . I am the reason I can’t find someone, I am the reason I keep losing friends, I am the reason my mental health is declining, I am the reason my physical health is declining. It’s my fault. My fault for thinking I can find someone as loving as […]

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dear diary

I’ve done it again, developed feelings for another unavailable guy. Shameful. I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I am needy or am I just going about this the wrong way? You have hope in certain things happening in your life but yet WHO TOLD YOU IT WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO? Just because you start […]

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Dear Diary

It’s been fun. We had a few wild times together but it’s time to move on. I’m over it. I’m over you. That’s what I’d like to say to the stuff that’s been happening to me lately. “GO AWAY” who has time for you? That negative shit… that doing too much for men… that “life […]

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Dear Diary

It’s a new month and that means new movements! Change is upon us right now so let’s start by getting our body in check. Lately I’ve been working on my mind and it’s truly changed for the better. Started giving myself more credit, slowly starting to own my existence, and I’ve become less inclined to […]

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Dear Diary

Change is in the air and it smells like bull crap. Now don’t get a girl wrong, change can be a beautiful thing: it shows growth and understanding, but is it bad for me to say it’s too late? Like you had a chance to truly change the outcome of your actions but didn’t care, […]

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Dear Diary

Mixed emotions. I still believe in love but I’ve given up on the pursuit. The wasted time and shameful disregard for anyone else’s feelings is something I can’t continue with. Yes I talk big and I can easily skip all the lovey-dicey shit and simple get some sexual attention or make men pay for my […]

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Dear Diary

11:58pm. I’m tired, zoning in and out, moody, and cold… I just want to get home. Cruising like I couldn’t careless; I usually speed… but today I’m doing the exact same number that speed limit sign says: 60. Car on cruise so I don’t have to keep my foot on the pedal… I’m still zoning […]

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DEAR DIARY

To be honest I’m thankful for the hard times because it wouldn’t make the good times that much enjoyable. That was my biggest problem: showing gratitude. Yes, life can be somewhat of a b**** but how quickly I forgot how far I’ve actually came. The hard times kind of prepare me to be more humble […]

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Dear Diary

It’s the ones you’ve known the longest that can create the deepest wounds. I guess I’m the bad guy even though I was the one who was wronged… is it wrong to confided in someone you think is there for you? Maybe it’s just wrong to assume that people actually rock with you. You’d be […]

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Dear Diary

It’s like every week I’m learning a new lesson. This weeks lesson: keep it to yourself. I mean everything!!! Your feelings, thoughts, emotions, goals, dreams, love, trust, respect, money, compassion, consideration, joy, energy, opinions, EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter who you are or what you stand for to people if they don’t care then there’s no […]

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