Dear Diary

I just want to say, thank you. For all the blessings, trials and tribulations that I’ve been through. Everything happens for a reason, so regardless of what’s going on I want to thank the lord for giving me all these merciful blessings lately. I’ve been up and down about how I wanted to approach certain […]

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Dear diary

I told everyone I’m over it, but I lied. I’ve haven’t gotten over him. I am a fool. [Bee signed out]

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DEAR DIARY

When shit hits the fan, you find out who truly has you. His story just makes you look at your own story like : “same shit, different pitch.” You truly see who has you when life seems to be beating your ass like HARPO! The same ones who couldn’t wait to touch road with you, […]

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Dear Diary

I just don’t care anymore. It’s crazy how I’m constantly viewed as the bad guy but no one ever stops to see just how nice I am. I’ve let you guys talk down to me and fuck me over countless times but yet still don’t treat anyone as bad as they treat me. Now I […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve made a big decision a couple days ago that may change how the rest of year goes. I’ve been putting it off and also contemplating if I should go through with it… Lately I’ve been back and forth with a few people about how I’ve been treating them and quite frankly I understand. I […]

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dear diary

So I’ve been experiencing some fuckery lately with people feeling some time of way about me. My thoughts on that is: sounds like a personal problem. IDGAF. Now, I’m not trying to be mean, even though it sounds that way but my whole thing is how can you know there is a problem when no […]

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Dear Diary

My mind is drawing blanks or there’s too much on my mind to process things. Mondays. Everyone hates Mondays because it signifies going back to reality. All the excitement of the weekend has faded away as you go throughout the week anxiously waiting for Friday to come so you can sink back into the rabbit […]

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Dear Diary

5:30AM The way I have to give myself a pep talk to get up and come into work. When you’re mentally drained, every day becomes a mission. Like be nice becca, don’t cuss no one off…. don’t yell… try to smile… try and be happy. You say all that to yourself but yet you wake […]

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Dear Diary

October, 10, 2020 [12:15am] I can’t sleep because all I can think about is all the things I didn’t say. All the times I should have told people to go fuck themselves and the times I should have cut ties with certain people. I’m also lying awake thinking about my friend Melly aka Melissa. One […]

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Dear Diary

BECCA! Stop telling people your fucking business, it will turn around to bite you in the ass. These hoes aren’t your friends and these dudes will laugh at you the second you’re out of their sight. You’ve witness the man dem laugh at numerous females RIGHT after they leave, DAFUQ makes you think they don’t […]

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Dear Diary

Boy have I come a long way. My main goal for this year was to get a car and the moment has arrived. I am a driver now. Although the process got rushed because of my job moving locations, I am thankful that I accomplished something big this year. I’m excited and nervous to truly […]

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Dear Diary .

Throwback Thursday. Monday, December, 30th, 2019. 11:19pm. *as the year ends, I think of all the decisions I’ve made, loved ones that have passed on, and all the fun I did have; makes me feel a little indifferent.. my body is getting weaker, my mind and words are more harsh; life has beaten my ass […]

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Dear Diary

I need a change. I’ve never been more determined to fix my life other than right now. I’ve always been the talker: I wanna do this, I wanna get that, fly there, make that but yet nothing. Almost 30 and I haven’t even been to college/university. I had big plans though, shit i still do […]

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Dear Diary

I’m stuck. Can you believe I can’t get TWO guys out of my head. On one hand, you have me worried about Guy A and asking the big question : Why? Then on the other hand, I’m still trying to get rid of the feelings I had for Guy B. – The spark was undeniable […]

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