Dear Diary

Change is in the air and it smells like bull crap. Now don’t get a girl wrong, change can be a beautiful thing: it shows growth and understanding, but is it bad for me to say it’s too late? Like you had a chance to truly change the outcome of your actions but didn’t care, […]

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Dear Diary

Mixed emotions. I still believe in love but I’ve given up on the pursuit. The wasted time and shameful disregard for anyone else’s feelings is something I can’t continue with. Yes I talk big and I can easily skip all the lovey-dicey shit and simple get some sexual attention or make men pay for my […]

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Dear Diary

11:58pm. I’m tired, zoning in and out, moody, and cold… I just want to get home. Cruising like I couldn’t careless; I usually speed… but today I’m doing the exact same number that speed limit sign says: 60. Car on cruise so I don’t have to keep my foot on the pedal… I’m still zoning […]

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DEAR DIARY

To be honest I’m thankful for the hard times because it wouldn’t make the good times that much enjoyable. That was my biggest problem: showing gratitude. Yes, life can be somewhat of a b**** but how quickly I forgot how far I’ve actually came. The hard times kind of prepare me to be more humble […]

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Dear Diary

It’s the ones you’ve known the longest that can create the deepest wounds. I guess I’m the bad guy even though I was the one who was wronged… is it wrong to confided in someone you think is there for you? Maybe it’s just wrong to assume that people actually rock with you. You’d be […]

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Dear Diary

It’s like every week I’m learning a new lesson. This weeks lesson: keep it to yourself. I mean everything!!! Your feelings, thoughts, emotions, goals, dreams, love, trust, respect, money, compassion, consideration, joy, energy, opinions, EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter who you are or what you stand for to people if they don’t care then there’s no […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve been lying to everyone around me about how I’m truly feeling. There’s no clear way of saying “leave me thee fuck alone” without causing problems. Always talking about being mentally drained and now you physically drained. Only reason you actually get out of bed is because there is money to be made; forget socializing. […]

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Dear Diary

Forgive me. forgive me for wanting more Forgive me for forgetting Forgive me for trying to love someone Forgive me for leaving the church Forgive me for believing you were my friend Forgive me for being so blind Forgive me for the useless money spending Forgive me for yelling Forgive me for swearing Forgive for […]

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Dear Diary

When you don’t get what you want bee you turned into an arse! Why don’t you speak up more or stop letting people get what THEY want? Then because of that you slowly take your frustration out on everything… What good is that getting you? How is that going to make you rich and more […]

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Dear Diary

Hey…. it’s been a while since I’ve typed my thoughts out but there’s no time like the present. It’s a struggle to remain the kindhearted person I am when I just want to be heartless like everyone else. Like… I wanna not give a crap about what people think or who I hurt too! Nah… […]

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Dear Diary

It’s like no matter how many times I tell people to mind their business or the business that pays them, they don’t hear me. My body is my body. My mouth is my mouth. What I say, do, or where I go, is MY problem alone. I don’t get why people believe in their mind […]

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Dear Diary

I just want to say, thank you. For all the blessings, trials and tribulations that I’ve been through. Everything happens for a reason, so regardless of what’s going on I want to thank the lord for giving me all these merciful blessings lately. I’ve been up and down about how I wanted to approach certain […]

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Dear diary

I told everyone I’m over it, but I lied. I’ve haven’t gotten over him. I am a fool. [Bee signed out]

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DEAR DIARY

When shit hits the fan, you find out who truly has you. His story just makes you look at your own story like : “same shit, different pitch.” You truly see who has you when life seems to be beating your ass like HARPO! The same ones who couldn’t wait to touch road with you, […]

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Dear Diary

I just don’t care anymore. It’s crazy how I’m constantly viewed as the bad guy but no one ever stops to see just how nice I am. I’ve let you guys talk down to me and fuck me over countless times but yet still don’t treat anyone as bad as they treat me. Now I […]

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