Dear Diary

I keep getting myself into the same situations. I try to separate myself from the misuse of others but I am too caring and also too naive. I know I’m being used, so why do I continue? I know they couldn’t careless about me so why do I entertain them? Why is it so hard […]

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Dear Diary

Today’s thoughts : Should I have waited? (August, 27, 2020) So let me backtrack and give you guys a little back story to this question. Before February of this year I was still a virgin. Yes… I was almost 30 years old and still a virgin. I got to the point where I just said, […]

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Dear Diary

I don’t know what I’ve done as a person to get such disrespect from people… like forreal.. what makes someone decide to treat people so damn wicked. I don’t know what I’ve really done to give people a bad impression but that shit has to get dead. I don’t how but it does. Y’all doing […]

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Dear Diary

Determination has truly set in, I have to change this feeling inside. As I look in the mirror at how much my body has changed from doing little workouts everyday since the 1st of the month, I am truly proud of myself. Procrastinating was and is still one of my biggest flaws: I got great […]

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Dear Diary

I’ve figured it out…. it’s me . I am the reason I can’t find someone, I am the reason I keep losing friends, I am the reason my mental health is declining, I am the reason my physical health is declining. It’s my fault. My fault for thinking I can find someone as loving as […]

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dear diary

I’ve done it again, developed feelings for another unavailable guy. Shameful. I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I am needy or am I just going about this the wrong way? You have hope in certain things happening in your life but yet WHO TOLD YOU IT WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO? Just because you start […]

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Dear Diary

It’s been fun. We had a few wild times together but it’s time to move on. I’m over it. I’m over you. That’s what I’d like to say to the stuff that’s been happening to me lately. “GO AWAY” who has time for you? That negative shit… that doing too much for men… that “life […]

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Dear Diary

It’s a new month and that means new movements! Change is upon us right now so let’s start by getting our body in check. Lately I’ve been working on my mind and it’s truly changed for the better. Started giving myself more credit, slowly starting to own my existence, and I’ve become less inclined to […]

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Dear Diary

Change is in the air and it smells like bull crap. Now don’t get a girl wrong, change can be a beautiful thing: it shows growth and understanding, but is it bad for me to say it’s too late? Like you had a chance to truly change the outcome of your actions but didn’t care, […]

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Dear Diary

Mixed emotions. I still believe in love but I’ve given up on the pursuit. The wasted time and shameful disregard for anyone else’s feelings is something I can’t continue with. Yes I talk big and I can easily skip all the lovey-dicey shit and simple get some sexual attention or make men pay for my […]

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