To be honest I’m thankful for the hard times because it wouldn’t make the good times that much enjoyable. That was my biggest problem: showing gratitude. Yes, life can be somewhat of a b**** but how quickly I forgot how far I’ve actually came. The hard times kind of prepare me to be more humble when things start to actually work out for me. Crazy. I just want to thank the heavens for not giving up on me and I want to thank myself for not giving up either. It’s a struggle to see the positive when everything around you is so negative; I get it, easier said than done. Nonetheless, this feeling of relief and joy I feel now that things are slowly coming together for me is amazing. Makes me wonder why the hell I was feeling so defeated before. Just another hurdle you have to get over in life to make it to the finish line. I don’t know how far I am or if I’ll even make it to the finish line before I am called home: I just know that at this very moment, I am kind of happy. Crazy again because I wasn’t this way last week; just goes to show how quickly your life/mood can change. Moments like this I can learn to appreciate the hard times because it made me stronger. It made me believe that things couldn’t get any worst so might as well go with the flow until you meet that curveball when everything shifts; that day is coming soon.
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