I’ve been lying to everyone around me about how I’m truly feeling. There’s no clear way of saying “leave me thee fuck alone” without causing problems. Always talking about being mentally drained and now you physically drained. Only reason you actually get out of bed is because there is money to be made; forget socializing. What’s the point in being around someone who doesn’t check for you like you’d check for them? It’s a waste of time and it’s sad to see myself in a “clown” state all because I have a big heart. Naive. With holding your true thoughts towards people because you just don’t have the energy for what comes after you’ve said your piece. There’s only been 5 people who have been checking for me so far this year: actually 6 but she’s far so she can’t do as much as the others. I am grateful for them. For the rest, may the heavens bless you because you will be gone out of my life soon. Holding onto unnecessary baggage is a big setback so y’all getting dropped off at the next exit.
[Bee signed out]